Hello? Anyone there?
It's me, Cori. I used to write here. I used to share funny stories about being single and wishing desperately for a husband. I wrote about my cat a lot, too. But then *magic* happened. I met the love of my life and on a chilly January evening (during sunset at the Oregon coast), he pulled a ring out of his pocked and asked me to be his wife.
We got married. We lived at a homeless shelter. We moved. Our changes jobs changed. And changed. And changed. (Gotta love ministry!)
Marriage is awesome when you are married to your best friend. I learned (a lot about) the world of fake wrestling, discovered extreme couponing, and have logged countless hours playing Facebook games like Sims Social. We are a dual (note: not duel) church family, in that we serve and work for two different churches (of two different denominations, no less!) Our lives continue to spin and whirl before us, leaving precious blank spots in our calendar for friends and family... and well, each other.
And maybe that's about to change? Maybe it starts with getting back into the saddle of writing to the few and far away. Maybe these next 40 days or so will help that out... Yesterday marked the first day of Lent, and even though I do not attend a church(es?) that observes Lent in a super-serious way (at least from what I can tell), I've always loved the idea of intentionally choosing to give something up in order to invite Jesus into our heart to challenge, encourage, redeem or convict us...
However, I am a little "bad" at keeping up with the whole 40 days deal... Blame it on a weak follow-through, even if it is for the Lord of Lords. So, when I read this post, I got pretty excited because even though its for 40 days (or so), it is broken down week-to-week. And each week is different: yee-haw!
I decided to mutiny.
To put my hands in the air and wave the white flag. I give up. I am burned out and tired. I am drowning in the excesses of trying to do it all and have it all. Of missing friends and family. Of spending more time staring at screens than the sexy brown eyes of my beloved. Tired of tripping on laundry on the floor and piles of papers in the office.... when all I want is to feel freeeeeeeeeee!
I made a couple decisions. One, I am leading a small discipleship group for women. I grow best when I have others around me (according to Monvee, I grow best in the context of relationships.) I also believe having people over on a weekly basis will force me to have a tidier home. (We'll see about that!) (The irony of adding something to my plate in order to feel less busy, is not lost on me, by the way.)
In my preparation for our first studyto be 'unpacked' tonight and reading over the chapter on Assurance, this verse stuck out at me:
If we claim to be without sin, we deceive ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteosness.
1 John 1:8-9
Good stuff. I shall conclude this "back-to-the-blogosphere" post with a confession because I wholeheartedly believe that He is faithful, just, and has promised to make all things right:
I need something to change. I want something to change. I profess that something WILL change.
Stay tuned for more rambling and what I may title: 'Mutiny of Excess and Me'.
(Also... I need my wonderfully gifted, handsome husband to help make my blog site look pretty again... hint, hint... so please excuse the boring page.)
I'm glad you are back!
Posted by: Korrin Weldon | Feb 24, 2012 at 08:42 AM