trying to hit pause

a little over a year ago, my church did a four-part series called "Pause"... and I have been thinking about it (and the its main points) a lot lately.

The promo text for the series read:

Sometimes life gets moving so fast that we don't take the time to evaluate our priorities. The four-part message series Pause will take us through the process of realigning our priorities, restoring our spiritual passion, reconnecting with key relationships, and remembering the needs of others.

One of the pieces from this series that I remember the most though, is the image (video) they used to promote the series. I will see if I can get access to it. :) I loved how the lights showed how busy and fast life got... How if we aren't careful life will pass us by in a big blur.

After the series ended, one of the large posters with the Pause image was placed on a wall at the top of the stairs on the way up to the office. I loved that poster. I loved its location. It reminded me every morning on my up to go to work to pause. It reminded me during the day when I ran up and down the stairs working on projects or setting up rooms, to pause. Honestly, I wish they hadn't taken the sign down, because I think it was a good reminder for us all to not get so swept up in the busyness of a large church but to appreciate all the things that make it work. And now the wall is empty, and not inspiring at all. Blah.

I don't have the right thoughts yet to process "the pause" I feel I need right now. As I told some friends I serve at church with, I am in a prayer and planning mode. I need to realign my priorities... though, that in of itself is hard. It means changes. It means sacrifice. It means braving something new and different. It means actually pausing too. Ugh.

I know I am tired. Tired of getting migraines, tired of feeling resposible, and then tired of feeling bad for feeling responsible, tired of worryng about money, tired of being tired. I need to pause.

I could go on more, but its midnight, and I am trying to go to bed earlier. I also have to be at work by 8am.

But yeah. Will be thinking on that...